The Beginning

So it's been a week of me being single.... Heartbroken?? Yes, but probably not in the way you'd expect. Yesterday (Sunday) would have been a year with this person, they'll stay unnamed, and for those who don't understand whats going on just ask and i'll explain. (not because i like to start or spread stuff, thats not me at all. i'm just the kind of person that'll tell you the truth if you ask...) Anyways, i wish we could've made it to a year but thats not what God had in store. In Sunday School this past Sunday we read:

James 1:2-5

2 My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, 3 knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. 4 But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.

basically it talks about how God tests us and how from those tests we can chose to better ourselves or become bitter about the situation. Looking back at the past week i realized that i chose the path to better myself. Instead of changing myself for this guy or being completely depressed about it, I chose to accept our departure as it was. I feel like i've lost my best friend but i can honestly say that we had an amazing year together. I have those moments where i see him and just want to act how i did when we were together but then i remember that we're not. Some feelings change but then again some don't. If this person happens to come across this and reads it i just want you to know that i'm not bashing or hating you, i actually respect your decision and appreciate that when you realized you didn't feel the same you said something.... i just want you to know that i'll always be here for you, no matter what happens. I've never judged you before this and i won't now but just realize that i told you the truth and i'll stick by that 100% i just hope that one day you'll see that i was looking out for you and had your best interests at heart...

k so that was probaly awkward for everyone else and if not i hope that it inspires you to have meaningful relationships, even if it's friends. LOVE PEOPLE! stick up for those around you and stand by those dear to you, the world would be such a better place....