hmmm since the last time we parted....

well alot has happened! i spent a month with 4 amazing girls in Africa, started college.... well maybe not so much has happened then. School is pretty ehhhhhh.... the most interseting classes i have is US History 1301 and Engish 1301. This is the intro to  my first essay we wrote, it's a personal essay so we could choose a person, place or event to write about....

The train came to a screeching stop. Mechanically I pulled down my black and white plaid suitcase from the overhead luggage rack, slung my black, pink, and white flowered backpack over my shoulders and followed the line of fellow passengers out into the train station. Surrounded by frantically moving people I located the exit gates. Swiping my ticket I briskly ascended the stairs that lead to my destination while dragging my poor suitcase behind. After each conquered step the view of the city could be seen, a smile and a sense of accomplishment appeared on my face. This is my town!

I'd say i'm proud of it! lol I've been practicing my British accent for our Christmas musical coming up, The Gospel According to Scrooge. It's pretty hilarious i must say! We get to dress like we're from the 1800s! i have a huge petticoat and an eight-layered shirt, and a hat to match (that i made myself)! :) My friend Liz is getting married this saturday! How crazy! Her bridal shower was today, it seems like everyone is getting married! One this weekend and 3 next year, i'm sure some more will pop up in the next year!

36 Days

hmmm okay so tomorrow, well technically today i will begin the 36 Day adventure to which i was called to about a year ago by Father Himself, but i will not be by myself... no siree!! (sp?) lol anyways my journey begins with the lovely land of Igosia and then Tuesday i will leave the U.S.!!! Please pray for all the teams that will be traveling to their desiganted destinations... pray for the light of God... pray for Him to shine through us to the people we will meet.... pray for protection over all of us... and anything else you can think of, it's quite late lol
i'll try to update on here or the lovely FB... this is the begining of 36 Days

Strong??.....

Yesterday someone told me that i was a strong person...whether meaning it as a compliment or not there is simply no way i'm like that by myself, or atleast by myself i don't feel strong... I'm only strong or what we think of as strong with the help of Father, thats how i get through each day, whatever happened or went down during the doesn't matter in the end because i have Christ by my side

Life

.....hhhhhmmmmm life life life...... have had fun hanging with friends these past few weeks. we've done ridiculous things like INSANITY!!! (the workout program) which we're starting week 4 of 8 on this coming up Wednesday, played laser tag and then ate at IHOP, worked out some more, chilled at my house before we work out, rode in a 2010 Camaro!! :) went swiming in the creek (my first time ever!) watched movies (new and old) and listened to Squidward play the Clarinet :) it's amazing how fast life can fly by... i feel like i'm busy with so much stuff but i love the feeling, only a month left til i receive my piece of paper telling me i've completed 13 years of school but it's like a piece of me will be gone. i'll miss argueing with teachers about assignments and due dates and rushing to finish a study guide for ms. turner (okay maybe not so much) 

 -----> In a little over 6 weeks i'll be on my way to Africa (which i have all the info now!!!!!) and i'll spend my summer there with 4 other amazing girls and the locals, i'll come back changed. i won't be the same me as i am now... in a few weeks i won't be the same me now, but God will have changed me and molded me to be more like himself, my earthly self will be very limited compared to the Glory of God shining through me... God will show us soooo many things that will blow our minds, that we won't be able to comprehend. i'm ready for God to use me in ways i've never imagined, to reach people i would have never imagined reaching, to show me things i would have never imagined seeing with my own eyes, to give me even more of a heart for missions and even more than that for people, and anything else that hasn't come to mind....

 I AM READY FOR GOD!!!

Just want to thank the people that stood beside me and was there for me when i was completely broken through all this, you have no clue how much it means to me. I especially want to thank those that i eat lunch with... Instead of eating in the cafeteria like everyone else we have a Breakfast Club group that eats outside by the Choir room. yeah pretty legit! lol But they'd spend their lunch encouraging me and pretty much helping me through everything, everday we'd talk it was quite a blessing. Those girls and even fewer guys are a big reason why i'm not depressed or down, their encourangement lifted me and i'll be ever grateful....   :)

The Beginning

So it's been a week of me being single.... Heartbroken?? Yes, but probably not in the way you'd expect. Yesterday (Sunday) would have been a year with this person, they'll stay unnamed, and for those who don't understand whats going on just ask and i'll explain. (not because i like to start or spread stuff, thats not me at all. i'm just the kind of person that'll tell you the truth if you ask...) Anyways, i wish we could've made it to a year but thats not what God had in store. In Sunday School this past Sunday we read:

James 1:2-5

2 My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, 3 knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. 4 But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.

basically it talks about how God tests us and how from those tests we can chose to better ourselves or become bitter about the situation. Looking back at the past week i realized that i chose the path to better myself. Instead of changing myself for this guy or being completely depressed about it, I chose to accept our departure as it was. I feel like i've lost my best friend but i can honestly say that we had an amazing year together. I have those moments where i see him and just want to act how i did when we were together but then i remember that we're not. Some feelings change but then again some don't. If this person happens to come across this and reads it i just want you to know that i'm not bashing or hating you, i actually respect your decision and appreciate that when you realized you didn't feel the same you said something.... i just want you to know that i'll always be here for you, no matter what happens. I've never judged you before this and i won't now but just realize that i told you the truth and i'll stick by that 100% i just hope that one day you'll see that i was looking out for you and had your best interests at heart...

k so that was probaly awkward for everyone else and if not i hope that it inspires you to have meaningful relationships, even if it's friends. LOVE PEOPLE! stick up for those around you and stand by those dear to you, the world would be such a better place....